Do the Stars Long to Shine?
It is in the nature of Life for it to throw us some curves and challenges. My resilience has been challenged in the last eight months by the death of my father, my sister in and out of critical care at the hospital four times out of six visits in a four-month period, my car rear-ended at high speed on the freeway and totaled…all this for starters. And now…
Now it’s been too long since I’ve posted and I start getting that constipated-creative uncomfortable feeling when I’m not sharing here something of what’s flowing through my system. Perhaps it was the recent week spent with my 93 year old mother-in-law in her dying time. It was the most conscious passing that I have been privileged to be part of. And it was an intense week. I have journaled about it…and not yet posted the intimate reflections.
That week was immediately followed by four days with 700 or so of the world’s top resiliency and sustainability scientists, researchers and practitioners at the Resiliency 2011 conference held at Arizona State University. Talk about a cognitively intense and analytical experience!
I retreated to quiet evenings and dinner alone in order to integrate and incubate on the days’ events. I’ve been writing on this momentous 2nd international event, and this post will be followed by at least one if not more to come.
It is time however for me to open the spigot here, so to speak, or risk the consequences of damming myself up more. So here goes; below is my first conference evening’s response to perhaps 15 heady scientific papers and two keynote presentations on Resilience, Innovation, and Sustainability: Navigating the Complexities of Global Change.
OK, so I was desperate for some heart felt expression.
Do the stars long to shine?
A tree think to grow roots?
The meadowlark to sing?
Does the young bull snake
at my door consider if
the time is right to shed its skin?
Imagine the dilemma of the cicada—
whether to risk crawling out of an exoskeleton
grown too small—or to stay safe…inside.
And what of the butterfly?
Imagine the quandary of the caterpillar:
Should I surrender to this impulse
dissolve into a gelatinous molecular gel today
and risk…risk what?
What shall I become?
Who will I be?
Will I have a name?
Will I know it?
No? You cannot imagine these things?
Neither can I and yet my heart trembles
as I consider these questions
as embodiments of the transformations of perception and being
my life and our times ache within my soul
for awakening into
I admit the desperation of spirit
that drives me once again to such remembrances
of my own shared primordial source
where I too live undivided and in grace
at one with who I am
the intelligence of the cosmic life force
of which I and you are individualized expressions
—not separate fragmented or broken—
And I am fully capable of listening…
to the ancestral stars yet singing in every cell of this body
listening to the stillness and deep inner silence
to the same unspeakable but palpable presence
Vibrant and alive
in the primeval forest of lofty redwood trees
living in the bright and sparkling eyes of every newborn baby
living amidst the serpentine rising and falling of twenty foot ocean swells
With me alone in my sea kayak
and neither land nor another soul visible anywhere
yet there is a resonance in the beating of my heart
the grace of a primal drum calling me home
Like a rain drop knowing how to fall into the sea.
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Note: Audio and slides of invited presenters are now up on the conference web site program page: Resilience 2011 Program.